make yourself a warm cup of something nice, position yourself into your favourite reading position and go with me though this 300 days NoFap journey summary.
Why NoFap? I wanted to do NoFap even before I found this sub. The reason for that is that I was already aware of the damage this futile activity is capable of causing. Just to be clear here: I have nothing against the actual fapping, however PMO cycle is simply devastating: in my personal case, my hormones were screwed up, my priorities were all over the place and last but certainly not the least, the time spent doing it was enormous. I found this place, read some posts here and said to myself: now or never. 300 days later, here I am.
First days were hell. Blue balls effect that was happening to me (yes, it is real), was so strong that on a few occasions I simply just positioned myself into fetal position and hoped it will pass. I then learned about ice packs and started using them directly on my testicles (ice wrapped in a freezing bag, wrapped in some cloth). Few of days like that and it all went away. I made a deliberate decision not to use any technical gimmicks to help me with urges and didn’t tell anyone I was on this journey.
The reason for this is simple. I already have won myself back from one huge addiction and that was smoking. This took me three times to do it and the last time I made it, it was solely based on my decision that enough is enough. Only your mental power can help you fight your inner demons and in order to have a complete victory, you have to win this war alone.
So there I was, all exposed, workmates sending me pictures of women with more or less clothes, banners of various content popping up, the usual stuff. As with any other exercises, beginnings are hard, but now I am totally immune to this low level propaganda. Make no mistake, I do have urges, huge ones, but I gained this ability to filter out sexy pixels. Make no mistakes urges will never leave you and you cannot down your guard or you will lost it. Do not touch yourself when you are feeling aroused. Do not tempt yourself. Be vigilant and stay strong forever.
From the early start I also made decision the utilize the power of cold showers. The real ones. Cold all the way, all in. Besides NoFap, this was the best decision I have made in my recent life, and I will explain the benefits in the following chapter.
Ok, this one might be controversial, but it really did happen. Some 6 or so years ago, I had this skin condition that looked like eczema or psoriasis and in manifested as cracked skin on fingers and feet. It was terrible, uncomfortable and made me really depressed sometimes. I spend a lot of time due to nature of the work on a PC, and when it all flared up, I was literally feeling each press on a keyboard directly in my brain, due to pain I was experiencing. In all those years, no doctor could help me and all creams and shit I was prescribed with only helped a bit with my symptoms.
Now enter NoFap and daily cold showers. 3 to 4 months in, this condition is…gone! Yes, you read it right and believe me, it really is. I still do get a bit dryish skin from time to time and I still have a dandruff issue, but this embarrassment is gone. In addition to cold showers and NoFap, I also lost some weight (around 20 pounds), but it did happen later and my diet is a bit different, more healthier but this is also a relatively recent change.
Regarding PIED, I never actually had it, but binging did cause me to become insensitive from time to time. I had some sexual encounters during this 300 days, more on the beginning of the process, and everything was working fine. So far, I had two wet dreams, I do get morning and mid-night erections (those are particularly hilarious, since they do wake me up in some cases) and I get aroused.
Flat lines are real. They come and go and you just have to live with them. Some last for one week, some for three, but they will happen to you.
Since you cannot escape your mind and this is the war happening there, this ones are huge. Yes, they feel like superpowers and I don’t care if they are placebo or whatever, but they are real.
First few days in, as expected, you are all over the place. The only thing ringing in your mind is question: “Is this all worth it?”. My beginnings were marked by this special situations I was in, rapidly losing one woman I cared for and seeing another one that was my casual encounter and short time friend doing the most stupidest thing in her life without listening to the voice of reason (she managed to screw her life royally), which put additional pressure on the whole effort. However, there is always a point in your life, where you have to make a decision and for me it was to focus all my mental power into NoFap. You cannot help other people until you help yourself.
Those two persons are now basically gone from my life, so I lost that battle, but won multiple other ones. This experience and restored hormonal balance made me find willpower to open another front against my biggest demon that was haunting me from the beginning of my life: procrastination.
So I started exercising regularly, lost some 20 pounds, changed my diet from shit to a better, optimized my sleeping pattern, started working on my side business, which is still moving to slow for my taste, but getting there.
I also managed to become calmer, more focused, learned to position myself better in social settings and am experiencing all this small little details that are direct benefits of the hormonal balance.
I also became a bit more empathic and less tolerable to shit people try to feed me with on a constant basis, especially in my working environment.
I am better at approaching strangers, especially women, and I don’t get irritated by small, useless things in life.
It includes NoFap, no doubt. I am on a path to find my complete inner peace with each day passing by. I finally understand that I will die on my own, and that this life is the only chance I have got. I cannot spend it on dopamine releasing pixels. Therefore, my plan for the next 65 days is to up my exercising routines, put my side business into a next gear, weed out useless people from my life completely and finally start to enjoy the life I deserve.
That’s it. Thank you all for reading this. I know my grammar sucks, but hopefully you found some bits of useful stuff in it. AMA if you want. Stay strong!