Over the last year I been telling my self things like ” if I could just get on a long nofap run I bet my dopamine receptors would heal, my anxiety/depression would lessen, my overall life motivation would increase, and I could start adding healthy activities, building a synergy with nofap that will carry me out of my depressive life style.”
Well here I am, a 100% PERFECT 1 month nofap run ( 0 pornography, images, or masturbation of any kind). Also added in running 3 miles 5 times per week, and gym 4 times per week. Also quit playing video games.
And the results? Honestly? I don’t feel much different then when I was fapping 3x per day six weeks ago… the best I felt was week 2/3 when my testosterone levels were pretty high and I was lifting hard and running further. A wet dream at day 24 and day 29 killed these benefits.
It definitely wasn’t the life changing month, that I been expecting for the last two years of attempting nofap: “if I can just get on a one month streak I bet my life will improve so dramatically based on all the superpowers and other information I been reading on rnofap for two years…” (my thoughts over the last two years).
I think that my internet/escapist addiction in general, that feeling of wanting to check reddit/email every 30 mins, the want to play video games when I first wake up, or when I first get home the first thing I do is turn on my computer… in think that problem is a way bigger demon then pmo is. One month of nofap did help me realize this, but if I would of worked on this on the first place pmo would of worked its self out.
In conclusion of two years of nofap research and attempts. I believe that PMO is a SYMPTOM of my real problem.
With that said, starting February after the superbowl, I’m going to begin tackling my escapist problem. Ill of course continue nofap, and hopefully with the combined effects of the two, plus continuing to exercise, till I feel some real results.
kdawg0707 – Remember that nofap enables you to feel negative emotions more clearly as well as positive emotions. Use this sadness as motivation to get pissed off/psyched up/super-motivated to start tackling some of your other problems. It’s so worth it!
xnymeros – It’s relieving to hear some one else is right here with me. Maybe “kdawg” is right, we are just feeling the negatives in our lives worse b.c nofap makes us more sensitive to feeling in general. But shit man… a whole month of kicking ass at nofap , WHERE ARE MY SUPER POWERS? WHY DO I FEEL JUST AS BAD AS WHEN I WAS FAPPING/GAMING ALL DAY?
PMO is definitely a symptom of a problem, that’s true for me. The people in my life definitely influence my motivation and enthusiasm for life. I need to be around life giving people, otherwise I end up drained myself. Perhaps you are this way ? The reason I’ve come to this conclusion is that living and working by myself has made me realise that I prefer my own leadership and when other people push me to do things I quickly get pissed off with it all. Anyway, rambling now, but related to what you posted in a big way
Oh and I think escaping something is all about control. When you feel like you’re not in control its your way of rebelling from reality. My mum is very pushy for example and critical. When I moved away from her (love her a lot) it allowed me to do things on my own terms and face the consequences of my actions, good and bad. This is important because I learned that my decisions are what matters, not somebody elses, and my life goes how I want it to based on my decisions. In this way you take back control over your life and you have a reason to want to do thing.
When I said about the week I meant the thought of spending a week without the internet would probably kill me. I haven’t spent more than a day without the computer in my entire adult life unless I’ve been on a trip away somewhere. Can’t recall a day I’ve not used the computer when I’ve been at home, sad really, very sad. In fact tried to take some time away from it two weeks ago, managed 1.5 days !!!!